As the Night Goes By

Have you ever felt like dying? While lying on your bed, waiting as the chemicals kick in. You can feel your heart pounding on your ears, really strong at first but slowing down, getting weaker. You take a deep breath; realized you were gasping. You fight not to close your eyes; you’re afraid you’ll never open them again. You don’t want to fall asleep, but there isn’t much of a choice by now. Your legs and arms feel heavy, like you’re melting away. You can’t keep your eyes open anymore; your brain feels numb. You lose your pulse! Can’t move! You can't listen your pounding heart anymore! You can certainly feel it stopped, you're fading.  

Almost convulsing you catch your breath; you shiver and put your hand on your chest to feel the violent beating of your heart. 

Then start all over again, as the night goes by.